Sometimes, on good days, I will sit my
girls in a circle, and for an hour we will talk. It is rare to get
them to go for that long; they are so guarded, so suspicious. But
today was not one of those days. Today, we talked, and talked, and
talked. We talked about secrets, about regrets, about things that
they blame themselves for that really aren't their fault. And,
eventually, we talked about memories buried so deep that they'd
nearly convinced themselves it was just a dream.
I had three girls share about stories
of molestations that they had never told a soul. Their faces pale,
struggling to find words, they managed, phrase by phrase, to tell
their stories. And we all listened.
To have earned the trust of these
suspicious and weary young women is a great honor. To listen to their
tales is difficult, but rewarding. This is how I can make a
difference. And, for those girls who have not experienced this
horror, it opens their eyes to the cruel reality of other lives. It
makes them think, to realize how wrong it is that so many of the the
girls that they consider their friends have suffered incredible
injustices in silence.
Sometimes, I am fortunate to have a
patient who understands this, who encourages others to share, who is
open and patient and, honestly, they do more good than some of the
staff. But those girls, as wonderful as they are, worry me too. They
are so focused on encouraging others that they forget about their own
problems, or shove them aside, deeming them “not that important.”
But their feelings are so
important; they are the ones who will encourage the world, but until
they learn to take time for themselves too, they will burn out.
I try
to pull these children (and adults) aside and talk to them, to share
this. Sometimes they listen, sometimes they ignore me. But I hope
that one day, maybe when they're a little older or a little wiser,
they'll remember what I said.
And
maybe then they'll turn off their phones, shut off the computer, go
outside, and simply be.
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